Darkness-and-Rage

Here I lie Frankensteins Monster Assembled from parts Beast, Man and Machine Kept alive by the Chemicals That I pump into my viens And the Love I Steal From the woman I Love. I am a Zombie Kept From the Brink of Death By Dark Magic And the Strings Of a Marionette Jerking me This way and that A Sad Facsimile of Life. But the Chemicals Are Toxic My Dark Magic A Sham My Puppet strings Frayed and Worn All that Sustains me Is her Love But I cant Drain her Life. My Darkness Strangles me My Rage Burns my Soul My Fear Eats away At all I Hope for Because my Past Still weighs Upon me. Have I Paid Penance? May I Rest? Though I feel Should I stop mo

When you don't text back I get worried.  I enter a state of panic and fear about what tragedy has befallen you this day and what horrible circumstances you are in that prevent you from responding. After wrapping myself in blankets and shedding manly tears of fear, I clawed at your bedroom door in a desperate plea for answers. Overcome with emotion, I ran out onto the street and called to the Heavens to have you returned to me and if not, for God to strike me down where I stand and bring me to you. My prayers unanswered, I tore at my clothing and lashed my body for letting this misfortune come to pass.  Now not only does my mind lay shatter

They will never hurt you, Of that I do promise. Not a hair Not a mark Not a cry of pain. Unwanted outside the dances of passion. You play such a dangerous Game with me. Your savagery Your lust Your wicked desire. Pushing my control to its limits. I don’t want to hurt you But you want me to. Every scratch Every bite Every kinky slap. Each a pain that gives joy and I love it. But you tell me you’re scared Of when I’m not there. Only Rage Only Darkness Only my demons within. Bringing misery and violence and death. Please don’t be scared Oh my beautiful love. Never touch Never hurt Never deserve their wrath. You shall

I am made whole in your eyes Whole in the light of your gaze Your radiance spilling out Onto my cracked and tortured soul Mending those scars I never thought would heal. You accept me All of me Every crack, every tear, every sin I've told you all my secrets And you've kissed me Through every one. You see my shadows You see my flames And you don't shy away You touch my darkness You taste my fire And you love them both. You make me want to be Be a better man than I am To make me fight Again For something That matters. For once For the first time My flames are wings To soar like a comet My shadows my arms To defeat any foe. You make me str

I feel split in three parts Each an orbit of mine A black hole, A red sun Obscured by my lies That tell you I’m fine. I don’t want you to notice Don’t want you to see My Darkness My Rage Behind the veil Of me. I don’t want to scare you, but It’s a dangerous game you play Bear my claws Bear my teeth Watch your step Or your prey. I wish I didn’t do this Wish I didn’t need to say But this pain But this hunger I’m afraid, It’s not going away. I hope with your touch That these wounds start to heal But your lust Your desire Push me more and more To let go and reveal. I hope I can hold on H

Don’t expect me back That’s not the way this works You can’t treat people the way you do And expect them to come back In a year or two. I've been here for you I always have been Standing b your side, Even recently, I would have been there To support you in your stride. But now you’ve pushed me Off the edge My love for you is all but gone I do not hate you, for what is there to hate I walk in sunlight while you bear the storm. I am happy, you are angry I am at peace, you are at war I am relaxed, you are nonsensical And I can name a many more. You hate your family, I adore mine You always want what you don’t ow

Hate me, go on hate me I now longer care You said you would At least try to try What a lie You dare to share. Your pushing me away I've lost what left I felt for you Your misery, your silence I’ll be better Without you. Go drown in your misery In your pit of black despair Go be alone Sing your somber tone My god no more I do not care. I've given up Congratulations You’ve won You drove me away I care no longer for you Forever gone I’ll stay.

You hated me I understood For the pain I dealt you dear. Friends you said We could be again I began to hope I fear. But now it seems I’m the only one Who’s trying to fix this anymore. Your steely words Your deadened eyes They cut me to the core. I'm growing sick I’m getting tired Of being ever nice to you. Im always kind I never shout But my patience has run through.

She loves me, she loves me not She likes me, she likes me not She knows me, she knows me not She hates me, she hates me not She hates me. Funny how things change Even though the wound is long closed It’s only just begun to burn And my oh how it burns. Not my pain, but hers My pain is an ache A wound long healed wrong Paining me daily, but never laying me low. Her pain was delayed Its sear hadn’t hit The blow I had dealt her Numbed by the shock. But now, the adrenalines gone The event has sunk in to her mind She now sees the true sin The real pain of the wound I gave her. It’s almost worse now Than it would have been the